Growing up I envisioned myself living in a huge house with a large backyard and cleaning crew. I imagined myself as the boss at some medical devices company. Marrying and children were not on the list since I wanted to be a strong, successful, and independent woman. Fast forward 20+ years and I now know that I had no idea what I was talking about!!! I didn’t realize this until I started really facing my fears and moving beyond them.
My life today
So, what does my life actually look like these days. Who am I? Well, I am a mom to two energetic and spirited children. I am a wife and partner to a wonderful man. My home is a 26ft travel trailer and my family and I travel together full time. There is no staff (hence the messy surroundings and the simple meals), there’s one vehicle, and we use a public laundry facility. It is basically the total opposite of the life I thought I wanted and needed so many years ago.
I look at my life now and I see it as successful. It is the life that I have now, it is the life that I want, and I chose all of it.
Yesterday was a drizzly cool day. We visited a RV repair shop so they could check out the awning. Hoping they and the insurance can get their paperwork together and get us a new awning!! Everyone (insurance folks and repair folks) have been super nice and helpful. If you missed any of our awning saga click here: http://www.exploringthelocallife.com/rv-awning-disaster/ #rvlife #rvlifestyle #rvliving #rving #selfie #rainyday #rving #winter #awningsaga #rvadventures #camperlife #camperlifestyle
In making this transition, I was facing fears. Facing fears of appearing like a failure, facing fears of being a mom, facing fears of redefining my career goals… I had to go against everything and everyone around me that defined success as having the big house, the career, and independence (having all my own things/goals/achievements). The thing is that I hated the house, once I had kids my career wasn’t as important, and being a part of a family – a mom, a wife, didn’t mean I was dependent…my entire life view changed.
How has facing fears changed me? Am I now fearless?
NO!!! It means I am willing to examine my life and challenge myself. I challenge the status quo and take a path this is fulfilling to me and that brings me joy and satisfaction.
Everyday is not amazing and perfect. Each day I try to figure out this life and how to be the person I really am and to pursue my passions and gifts. It involves facing my fears each day. I’m paving my own path each and every day.